Yesterday I was driving my kids here and there. It ended up being close to a 2 hour commute just between leaving work and getting my sons to their ball games. In this process of driving sometimes your mind wanders, you know? I started thinking about how it was stressful doing this...not running them, but doing it alone with little help from outside family members. My husband usually tag-teams the running with me, but he was having a busier-than-usual day at work, so he had to leave me to it on this day. I started thinking about how our other friends have grandparents that pick up and take the kids and go, go, go. We don't have that.....and it makes me sad.
It seems like when I look at things these days, it's often through the frame of how to grow spiritually or to improve myself either spiritually or mentally or physically. So in my thoughts yesterday, I began to think about why we are missing what we are. A lot of it is because in their younger years, my parents didn't take care of themselves...and it makes me sad, but it starting to make me angry as well. I change things when I'm angry so that's a good thing.
My dad lived hard and died young. He smoked and drank from a very young age. Had a heart attack before 50 and was dead of Cancer before 60. Too young. He stole life from himself and a future with him from me and my brother and our children. My mom is still alive and I love her dearly. She is dealing with a multitude of ailments including morbid obesity, Hypertension, Kidney failure (no dialysis yet), COPD and a general inablity to move freely. She feels miserable.
Now, as I process this, I think to myself...one day my sons (20, 16, 12) will have families and will need our support. My husband and I have to take care of ourselves so we don't steal this future from our family. My motivation is me and how I feel, but it is also for those I have yet to meet. I want to leave a legacy of change...of positive energy....of taking care of the temple that God has given me so I can enjoy every bit of my future. I cannot wait!!!!
It seems like when I look at things these days, it's often through the frame of how to grow spiritually or to improve myself either spiritually or mentally or physically. So in my thoughts yesterday, I began to think about why we are missing what we are. A lot of it is because in their younger years, my parents didn't take care of themselves...and it makes me sad, but it starting to make me angry as well. I change things when I'm angry so that's a good thing.
My dad lived hard and died young. He smoked and drank from a very young age. Had a heart attack before 50 and was dead of Cancer before 60. Too young. He stole life from himself and a future with him from me and my brother and our children. My mom is still alive and I love her dearly. She is dealing with a multitude of ailments including morbid obesity, Hypertension, Kidney failure (no dialysis yet), COPD and a general inablity to move freely. She feels miserable.
Now, as I process this, I think to myself...one day my sons (20, 16, 12) will have families and will need our support. My husband and I have to take care of ourselves so we don't steal this future from our family. My motivation is me and how I feel, but it is also for those I have yet to meet. I want to leave a legacy of change...of positive energy....of taking care of the temple that God has given me so I can enjoy every bit of my future. I cannot wait!!!!
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